Coming Out!! Oh Man! I thought I Would Die!

The Pathways we take are sometimes long and sometimes short either way they both have reason for the season. I believe we are all put on this earth for a reason many people feel as if they have no place on this earth. But I tell you this much we all have place here on this earth it is only taking the time to really find were you belong! I know I was in this very place once! You have to be who you are and not per tend to be something your not! For years I was in that very place were I didn't feel like I wanted to even be on this earth. For fear that someone would find out! My darkest Sercet and they would hate me for it! At the age of 21 years old I came out to my family that I was gay!!! Before I came out I was sitting at home having a really bad panic and anatiy attacks! I felt as if my air ways were being cut off! I would lose my breathe and almost past out! Till one day I picked up the phone called the first person at the time, who I held very dear to my heart! My Nanny I remember her picking up the phone and saying hello! I lost it! I started to lose my breathe and again! I could barely talk! I remember my nanny saying "Michael Whats Wrong Baby You OK! All at once I said no Nanny there is something I must tell you? There was a short pause on the phone when she said well tell me! Nanny I'm Gay! Her first response I never forget was well are you sure about that! Today I laugh about it but at that time there it was no laughing matter! I told her that I had been this way sense a Child and she just couldn't grasp the fact of her grand baby being gay! But over time she come to accept the fact and she loved and supported me no matter what! That day after hanging up the phone I called my dad the one person I was dreading to call! I was fearful that he would not love me! But that phone call would to be one of the easiest call of the day! My Dad Said he loved me and if that was what I wanted then go for it! I knew right there that My new life began! My Mother was heart broken but she come to terms with it over the years! Heck nobody has a choice. You either aspect me for who I am! Or you can kiss My A** as far as that is concerned! My Life is great now I have the love of my life! who my nanny got to meet before she died and also my dad, dad really like my partner Mike. I think my dad felt good to know that I would be taken care of by this wonderful man that I feel in love with. Today I know that I am lucky to be here and to enjoy my life! But with out the support of my grandmother I don't know if I could have came out! But I am Glad I did Cause now I am Happy and Full Of Life!